The older we get, the more we realise the value of the universe around us. In a world where materialistic elements serve as our oxygen, we often fail to grasp the fact that what actually matters is the source of it all. The uncertainty, insecurity, fear, trauma, disappointments, heartbroken moments, failures.
Meanwhile, the struggles of life clashes with the logistics of the system and our eyes are covered by a thin layer of mist, thus masking what lies underneath all the fog. Happiness becomes all about showcasing it for the world, and our pain, sadness and heartache remains invisible to the naked eye, because well, how can we show our vulnerabilities to the world?
The more you run after what everybody else already has, the more you lose yourself in the process. There is a fine line between moving on and letting go, and sometimes one happens without the other. No matter how much you’ve had to do it before, it never gets any easier the next time. It takes all that you have-every strength, energy, heart, willpower, and whatever else you’ve got, to push through it till the current end.
But this is what I’ve learned. Do it anyway. Instead of running away from it, run towards it. The harder it seems, the more you engulf yourself in it. The furthest that it seems, the closer you try to get to it. Reverse psychology could not have served you better. That pain you are feeling-is your gold. Use it, wear it, bathe in it and let it become the strongest part of you.
Spark that fire inside you to light up the hearts that still have not recovered from an internal power blackout. Your struggles, battles and failure is your reward and strength and this is where you use that experience to help others. So that they can rise to face their challenges head on, every single day, every minute and every second of their life and then before you know it, you wont feel as lonely, you wont feel as disheartened, and you will be fighting those demons right beside them.
Here is to a positive, optimistic, hopeful 2020. 🙂